Smelly Danielly

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I started making Matteo’s birthday decorations a few weeks in advance of his birthday as I knew things would be pretty hectic the closer we got to the big day. I didn’t go too crazy. I make a sign, some tissue paper pom poms and then hung some coloured streamers. Oh, and I also made confetti by hand hole punching coloured paper with a single whole punch, you know, because I am crazy.

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I also had to go out and buy a silver 1 balloon because, well, I had to.

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Uno was the theme of course.

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I baked a couple of things, including cupcakes and cookies. I also made all the appetizers from scratch because I like to make my life difficult. I love doing it but it sure was exhausting. Thankful I did get some people to bring food as well so I wasn’t totally going crazy with prep work.

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My Aunt made Matteo’s awesome cake!

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With it being his first time opening presents, Matteo wasn’t quite sure what to do. Oh, and of course we had to have football on in the background for all the men.

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Matteo was mesmerized by the candle.

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And thought the cake was pretty delicious too.

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After a quick costume change him and Papa decided to make the same face.

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Then he went off to play with his new toys.

The party was great with so many family and friends showering Matteo with gifts and love. However, I did find it a bit overwhelming! I don’t know if we have ever had that many people over to our house before. There was barely any room to move! I think next year I need to split it up and do friends on one day and family on another. That might be a bit more manageable.

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NOM NOM NOM!

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The following day was Matteo’s actual birthday. He ate some party hats, ate some cake and played with all his toys. He was a happy boy.

05. 02. 2015

This shit is getting emotionally draining.  #365photochallenge #breastissues #biopsy

The biopsy on my calcium deposit last week was more painful and awkward than I was expecting. Imagine laying on your side having a mammogram while a machine punches needles into you. I mean, yes I was numb, but still. I was way more sore afterwards than I was expecting.

There was talk that I wouldn’t receive my results by the time my follow up appointment was scheduled but thankfully my doctors receptionist hounded the hospital and the results arrived in the nick of time.

No cancer on either front, the lumps or the calcium deposit. That was all I cared about. All I wanted to hear.

And while that was good, there was more.

My calcium deposit is categorized as Atypical Ductal Hyperplasia. In other words it is a high risk lesion which increases my risk of getting breast cancer in my life time. I will have to have surgery to remove it and then be followed up yearly with a mammogram.

God only gives you as much as you can handle and I can handle surgery. While I am not looking forward to being sliced and diced I will not have to stay in the hospital over night, I will get to lay in bed and read and recover (which appeals to my sloth like abilities) and I get to add another cool scar to my collection. Sliver linings, people.

The surgery is not scheduled yet but will most likely be in mid March, right around the time of my colposcopy. YAY being a woman!

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I love the snow. I especially love the snow when I don’t have to work and I don’t have to drive.

The first snow of the season came a few days before Matteo’s first birthday. While it technically snowed while he was in the hospital the previous year, we counted this as his first snow day.

I didn’t buy Matteo a snowsuit this year because I didn’t expect it to snow very much, or at all and even if it did, would Matteo go out and play in it? Probably not, so I wasn’t about to spend the money. But then when it did snow all I could think about was going out and playing and taking pictures.

Thankfully my Mom had given me my old snow suit which I was supposed to use for Matteo had he been born on time and it snowed, but of course none of that worked out the way we thought. So when I found it on the morning of Matteo’s first snow day, I decided to “cram” his “oversized” body into my “undersized” snowsuit. It was a very tight squeeze but it worked for a few photos.

Matteo didn’t really know what to make of the snow. He didn’t really seem interested or uninterested until I tossed a small snow ball at him and he decided he was NOT a fan. Papa quickly saved him and he was no worse for wear.

Since that snow day in late November it has not snowed at all (minus a couple hours of snow rain a few weeks back) and that makes me sad. I have no where to go! LET IT SNOW! Be a pain in the butt now when I don’t have to take a million buses to work or get stuck on the highway for hours on end. BRING ON THE SNOW. But maybe not blizzard like amounts.

21. 01. 2015

Last year when the boys got together for their annual “Pig Day” Matteo was still in the hospital (and at the point very little) but I knew it wouldn’t be long before he could join in on the fun. However, one thing that is essential when making salami and sausages is that each man have his very own apron. When I realized this my creative wheels started to turn and I decided that I would make Matteo the most adorable apron on the planet.

It’s always hard when you have an idea in your mind of something you want to create but you can’t find the right supplies to make that idea come true. I knew what kind of print I wanted for Matteo’s apron but I didn’t know how easy it would be to find. Apparently I had a horse shoe in my back pocket the day I went to the fabric store because I found exactly what I had been looking for.

That moment when you find the exact print that you imagined in your mind on a bolt of fabric. I was so excited when I came across this yesterday. It will be transformed into the most adorable apron for Matteo to wear when he joins the men for sausage maki

Piggies! It was so cute I lost my mind.

I then googled a couple of examples of kids aprons and traced out a pattern. I wanted something that wouldn’t be too oversized right now, but not too tiny for the future. I ended up using this pattern here and then adjusted it as I needed.

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The finished product!

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I am kind of obsessed with these little piggies. I ended up having more fabric than I needed so I should totally make one for myself.

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So on Pig Day, Matteo and his piggy apron dropped by to check out all the meat grinding fun.

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Matteo wanted to play with all the raw meat which was totally food safe.

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“What are all these hanging meat toys?”

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No tears! These pigs led happy slop filled lives!

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Showing off his spiffy apron!

Matteo was a little unsure of all the noisy contraptions going off around him, but he was happy knowing he totally looked the part. A few more years and he will be the cutest sausage maker in town!

Life is funny.

There is no doubt that Wednesday was a bad day for me and little did I know things were about to get more interesting.

That afternoon as I was waiting for Chad to come home I received a call from my family doctor letting me know he had received the test results from the PAP test I had in November and would like me to come in to discuss them. He had an opening available the next day if I wanted. Sweet Mother of Mercy, what now? Without a doubt this phone call sent my panic senses into over load. The over worrier that I used to be was coming back with a vengeance. I have been called back before for weird PAP test results but this was all a bit much for me. At least I would be able to ask him about my lump biopsy as he had also received a copy of the results.

Then Thursday morning I received a call from the hospital letting me know they were cancelling my second biopsy scheduled for the next day and postponing it for the end of the month. Are you kidding me? I just want this to be over with and you guys are dragging it out? UGH.

Thankfully my family doctor is wonderful. He rightfully assumed I would be freaking out about all this and explained everything very clearly.

My lump biopsy came back negative so there was nothing to worry about there, thank God!

With regards to my calcium deposit biopsy being postponed, he said I shouldn’t worry about it and to ask my surgeon if he could phone the hospital to try and schedule it sooner as he had more pull with the hospital.

As for my PAP test, some of the cells tested came back as “abnormal” so he is going to schedule an appointment for me to get a colposcopy which is basically a fancy PAP test.

This was a lot of information to take in, but he stressed to me that I shouldn’t worry. There was nothing we could do about the biopsy right now so I’ve put it out of my mind. Hopefully the colposcopy shows nothing serious, but even if it does some fairly simple procedures can rectify the situation. I was actually talking to Matteo’s nurse about this and she went through a similar situation and had quite a few colposcopies done so I don’t feel so scared about it.

So one thing has been taken off the table and one new thing has been added to the table, but I don’t feel as worried about it as I did earlier in the week. I know that everything in life happens for a reason and that God has a plan for me but sometimes life just gets so overwhelming that I can’t help but worry and stress and freak out.