so…smelly – like her other italian counterpart - will be unemployed as soon as she gets back from her australian vacation…

i was waiting for the day when this would all blow up and i wouldn’t be able to take it any more and finally throw in the towel…and today was the day…and in all honesty i am so frickin relieved…the amount of stress that has been lifted off my shoulders is unbelievable…

now i am probably making it sound like my job was some horrible ridiculous thing that nobody would ever want to do but its totally not…it was just not my cup of tea…

i had been working there for almost 5 years…with my main job being filing…the company i work for is so confusing to explain that i will just spare you…all thats important is that i work for person one but person twos office…and i usually have more contact with person two (whos not my boss) then person one (who is)…

what i use to love about this job was that it was easy work…they were flexible and i worked whenever i could…and they paid fairly well…but then we moved into person twos office and it all went south…

i began to dread work each week and would stress about it for no reason other then the fact that i just grew to hate it and didnt want to go back…

i dont get a computer at work any more cause theres no room, i lost my desk and now get to work in the cornor of some random table, i dont get a lunch break unless i go out for lunch, i dont get any breaks at all for that matter…and last week i was able to use the computer for a short while and once i had left person two checked what i had been doing and noticed that i went online to looked at my blog…i did for literally two seonds cause i was only on the computer for an hour…and so i got in shit for that…

that was the straw the broke the camels back…so i gave up and told him that i would finish working my last 6 days (one day a week until australia) and then im not coming back…theres stuff other that lead to my decision but it would take to long to explain…

in the end…im glad i had the job when i did…but at this time in my life i am so over it and need something new before i scratch my eyes out…

heres hoping there are better things out there for me…

so yesterday was the ‘matthew burwell’ photoshoot…im really hoping that the pictures turned out good…i didn’t use a lot of light (by choice) but i did bracket so im hoping the film will work and all will be snazzy…

matt dressed as an italian for me too…but we didn’t do the photoshoot like that…

dinner was yet another huge thing …matt and i attemped to make dessert while his parents were at his brothers hockey game…but matt added an extra egg and it didnt turn out…needless to say we still ate the deflaited pan a choux…

by the time his parentals got home and dinner got started it was 8:30 for appitizers and 9:00 for dinner…his mother was worried that i was starving since i usually eat at like 5 and it was now 4 hours later…but i had basically been eating none stop since i got there so all was good

it also started to snow yesterday which i found quite weird…not enough to stick to the ground…but it did snow a lot and for a long time…it was hella cold outside tho too… especially when we went to buy 10 lbs of mushrooms…

i have crap loads of pictures but i think i will save them and post them periodically this week…it’ll give me something to talk about…or maybe i’ll just stick them on buzznet or my msn photoalbum…which i should re-link…but its acting all gay so maybe not…

and im on his moms iBook…and i have no idea how to use it…damn apples…they are just so damn classy…and yea…we went shopping for food…and now we are making dinner…and we have already taken some damn cool pictures…and im going to do my photography project on him tonight…and i just ate too much popcorn…and i dont know how to add pictures cause theres nothing on the screen that will let me…

the end.

last night i went out for coffee with panizzle and zomps…i figured we would go to starbucks cause we always do and that way i could get my ever so loved peppermint hot chocolate which would in turn not keep me up all night as coffee would…

i also remembered that there was a reason i no longer drank coffee…i couldn’t remember exactly why since it had been such a long time…but i knew there was something about it i didnt like…

but anyways we didnt end up going to starbucks we went to this little caffe down the street…and they didnt have hot chocolate…so i just went with a caffe mocha…which looking back on it was a bad idea…

and now i remember why…

cause everytime i drink coffee at night my stomach gets all upset and making me feel like i wanna hurl all over the place…and that exactly the way i felt…

and when i got home it wasn’t even like i could have gone to bed to sleep it off…b/c i was too wired…dear god…

yea so that wasn’t too fun…

but then i had a dream that raymi and phil came over cause they felt bad that i couldn’t come to their red party in t. so they came over and then phil started making out with me and raymi go jealous and so she started making out with me…and i was like whoa…and then we sat on my bedroom floor and talked about blogs and how raymi thought my blog was too happy and sunshine and it should be more aggressive and hating of the world…then they left to catch the plane back to t. they would only stay in town for like an hour…

weird…

i woke up at 5 this morning to give someone a birthday morning call…he was excited…

p.s. these boys are very hot…and i listened to the unicorns on the drive in…

i never really realized how much weather could affect someones mood as much as it does when you are already in a bad one…and even if your not totally in a bad mood shitty weather just puts you in the barrel with the rest of it…

its raining again and i never knew i could actually hate rain this much…i guess i can…its making me feel like death…from above…1979…

im at my internship right now and i get to spend all day taking pictures of clothes then photoshopping them and making them pretty…im quite excited about it…you tend to be more excited over the little things especially when you dont get to do them all the time…for example actually being on a computer at work that lets you blog and email people…

look at me being all classy in these pictures…its kinda funny how i can go from a total man dressed in scrubs helping my dad fix the car to a pretty dress and fancy beads…i have so many facets to me that i cant just stick with one and be that…sometimes i wanna be a skater…sometimes i wanna be a punk…sometimes i wanna be a stuck up rich girl from the hamptons…im so many things in one even i get confused…

i listened to weezer on the drive in this morning and sang every song…it was nice…i hadn’t done that in a while…

anyways i should go…its going to take me like 5 years to do this picture taking project…and it has to be done for tomorrow…

yea…well…we’ll see about that…

holla

**EDIT – the sun is now out and its hella bright…and im off work!!! oh goodness**