i hate how the second you talk about death everyone freaks out and thinks you are crazy...

so not to sound totally morbid...but death is death...and eventually you have to think about it...

and just because you think about it doesnt mean you are some crazy depressed suicidal crazy ass who is going to go and jump of a bridge in about three seconds - tho on a side note i have jumped off a bridge before...it was pretty sweet

anyways...sometimes i like to be morbid and talk about death and dying...people have died in my family...but for me it was never a sad moment...i mean it was but not where i was so over come with emotion and spent 3 weeks balling my eyes out...im pretty accepting of death...i know things happen for a reason and death is one of those things...so why fight it...

i guess thats partially because no one really really really close to me has died...tho i dont know if i actually would be overly emotional...

anyways...so i was thinking...what happens if/when i die...whos gonna tell all the people on my blog??? are they just going to think that i have left them all...and with no explanation??? so i thought to myself...i need someone to come on here and leave a message saying that i have died...as a way to let you all know...so the only person i could think of that would know i died and have access to my blog would be my friend dario...so i asked him to be my 'death' messenger...ha that sounds really bad...

i guess this is something us bloggers have to think about...who will take over when we die...will anybody??? will we still be blogging at that point??? will we have to leave our blogs to people in our wills...expressing exactly who we want to have it and what we want done with it??? this raises a lot of odd questions...

anyways let me say this now...im sorry but no one gets my blog...it will just be left here as a memorial to myself...and all you crazy bloggers that i love can come here and remember me...the nut that i was...

but now dont go and freak out...im not about to kill myself...i was just thinking about this...

the only thing that is guaranteed in life is death...

humm...i wonder what you guys would all do if i did die tho???