we are in the middle of packing and its a desaster…everyones screaming (well for the sake of an italian family we are just talking normally) we are bringing to much stuff, we dont know what to bring…its horrible…
i hate this leaving home business and i dont know why…last year when i went to new york by
myself is was so not like this…i was excited to go on a trip by myself and i wasn’t home sick at all…but everytime i go on a family vacation i get totally home sick…how does that make ANY sense?
also…i dont know about this going away for a
month business …the last time we went away for a month was 3 years ago when we flew off to italy …it was totally different then tho…i had a boyfriend who i missed and would call every chance i got …i had things to come back to when i got home …i had expectations…
for this trip i have none of the above…nothing to look forward to when i get home…no one left behind to miss…im basically 100% free to do 
whatever …and i think that scares me some because im not sure what it all holds for me…
i will be excited when i get there…and when i come home i will look back and be so happy that i went and got to experience everything…but right now…sitting here with crap all over my floor waiting to get stuffed in a suit case…i cant help but dread it all…i hate that i get so emotional about going away…
so i have all your address and im going to send you all post cards so expect them eventually…i dont think i actually get to australia until the 17th or 18th or something so i will try and send them out as soon as i get there so that they will come super quick…
i’ll post one last time before i leave tomorrow morning…
i have so much to pack…someone come do it for me?!?!?!?
