instead of asking questions and making plans i just stood there on the phone and said nothing…which is exactly what i told myself i wouldn’t do this time around…and now i feel like the biggest dork ever…tho had i been home and not out i would have actually stopped and chatted a bit…but i was out so i kinda had an exuse…but still…damnit…now i know i will sit here and think about it all night and be mad at myself until the next time i can phone and it can be all good again…i was thrown off by the sound of his voice…and that has nothing to do with me…oh well…tonight was an odd situation anyways…next time will be better…i can count on that…we are doing things my way this time…
the random musings of my mind…












