the canucks won last night even with out luongo in net…and god knows there were enough skeptics out there that thought it wasnt going to happen…and really…it almost didnt…but in watching the game/highlights thoughts began to accumulate in my head…

i understand that sports is clearly important in some mens lives…

i understand it…i accept it…i deal with it…and in all honesty i do pretty well at it…

i have never watched so many hockey games in my entire life as i have this current season…and honesty i do enjoy it…

and i have been very good at it too…i rarely talking during play, i never walk in front of the tv, and i always bring beer back from the fridge…not to mention the numerous hockey parties i have organized and prepared food for…

and through my understanding of this obsession men have with sports i let things slide…like coming home from a nice fancy dinner and the first thing they do is turn on the tv to watch all the highlights…thats fine…cause i understand that it makes them happy and having them happy makes me happy… and highlights aren’t always all the bad…but only to a certain point…

for example…

7 – 10:00pm – we watch the game…therefore we see every thine once…fine

10:00pm – now its time to watch all the sports shows and highlights – ok we see the important parts over…still ok…

10:30pm – now its time to watch the next installment of sports shows and highlights – basically the exact same thing we just saw…once more…still on the ok side cause it really drives home the parts that are important…

11:00 – the THIRD installment of sports shows and highlights – HONESTLY ITS THE EXACT SAME THING WE JUST SPEND 4 HOURS WATCHING!!! by this point i can predict everything thats going to happen and everything the announcer is going to say…so why oh why do we have to watch it YET AGAIN…

that is the only part in the whole sports watching process that i just dont understand…you’ve seen the game itself…you’ve see two entire shows dedicated to highlights…which therefore means you know everything about the game you JUST watched…as well as every other game in that was played that night…SO WHY do we have to watch it again?????????

i have patients for a lot of things…but watching the same sports highlights three times in a row…and i just blow a gasket…

i try…but i just dont understand why men need to watch the same thing so many times in a row…

i just ate potato wedges…and damn good potato wedges at that…

i think i have a problem…a ‘must stuff face with food at all times’ problem…and thats not a good thing…cause eventually its going to catch up to me and im going to get fat…

and trust me…i get reminded of that often so i really dont want to be getting all fat and not hot…

but i love food…more then ever really…and typically people stuff their faces with food when they are depressed and lonely and do it as a comfort thing…but i dont think thats why i do it…cause i have been the happiest ever…so that wouldnt make sense…

except if you count my lack of funds / hoboness/ the fact that i am counting on getting a job asap and thats prob. not going to happen and then im going to be totally emo and hate the world and lock myself in my closet and cry…

enter drama queen…
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yes maybe thats it…maybe its the pressure of money and expectations i have on myself and the fear of failure and the fact that salami and bread at 3 in the morning just make that all go away…

ummmm salami and white bread…

i tell myself to just be calm and patient and that it will all work itself out and i will leave my hoboness behind eventually…but there are so many things i want…and dont have the money for and its the most depressing thing ever…ahhhhhhhhh

food…i love you…ummm avocado…

crap i should go to bed and shut up before i eat the contents of my fridge…

i hate this…

so today was the photo shoot…the photo shoot i was quite apprehensive about…because they were calling for 100% chance of rain…and today was the only day peter could come out to do it…and i had a feeling it was all going to explode into awfulness…

and it almost did…

this morning anyways…

so two of my cousins….sisters…where suppose to be my models but then one couldn’t make it at the last minute so i didn’t know who i could get to be my model and there was a bit of a panic…then the other one could get into town cause she didn’t have a car and it was a little more panic…

then peter came earlier then i expected and i wasnt ready so there was some panic there too…
but thankfully i got the brilliant idea to just phone my other cousin (it helps being a part of such a huge family) and then drive out to her house cause she has a wicked forest in her back yard…and hopefully the whole photo shoot would come together in perfection…

i had to have faith cause otherwise i would have gone mental…

so we drive drive drive and we pick up cousins and we finally get together and it all worked out…

and it doesnt rain either…

thank the lord…

so now peter has 230 pictures to go through and i will get all the good ones and then i will post them up here and they will be amazing and i am excited…

and a HUGE thank you goes out to peter cause he is a genius and i dont know what i would have done with out him as my photographer and i owe him BIG TIME…THANK YOU PETER!!!
that was stressful…