i have no pictures. i have become lazy. its a hassle being at an event and running around trying to capture every moment while living none of it. so because of that i am lacking in the picture department.

saturday nights wedding was fun. we looked really hot but as you guessed it there are no pictures of us, taken by me anyways. i really liked my outfit cause i got it from work. chad started to take pictures but the memory card was full so i began to deleate pictures. then i looked up for a second and pressed the worng button. i deleated everything on my camera. pictures i hadnt uploaded yet. pictures from the family picnic. pictures taken in the car the night before while we were stuck on the highway in the middle of the night because it was closed due to an accident. GONE. they were gone. then i got pissed at myself for being stupid agian.

ive gotten into this funk again. it usually happens once a year where i get totally emo on sunday nights and monday mornings. i dont look forward to getting up and going to work. i dont want the weekend to end. i dont want to go to sleep and wake up in the same old same old. its weird how this sunday night emo come every now and then but it just gets me so down. i wish i had holidays this summer but alas there is no time to relax.

damnit. i started to write this post and then work got in the way and now the momentum is gone and i forgot what the point of this post was going to be (if there even was a point). i think i just wanted to waste some time.

i want some lunch.

no one is in the office today…so what does that mean!? i can get all the stuff i wanted to get done done with out any interruptions…and i can take a longer lunch…and i can totally relax…

then the boss phoned and told me if i get this order done i can leave at 3…hello bonus!

today is a good day…and its friday…forget the boredom…

exciting things to look forward to…

• getting off early
• having the condo to myself before chad gets home
• going out to white rock for dinner tonight at the ciavarros – so excited for food!
• shopping all tomorrow morning at the new H&M which is going to be maddness…and then off to my store for some 50% off discounts
• getting some photos printed that are majorly discounted and i get to print out about 200…so excited for pictures
• working on my special ‘project’…i got a month or so to get it done and maybe when im finished i will show you what its about
• weddings!!! one wedding saturday day and then another one saturday night and there will be lots of pictures and an open bar and drunkin friends and fabulousness
• finish sanding and staining the cabinet doors of death…i cant wait to get them out of my hair
• touch ups on the condo – molding and door frames…the new bookshelf which only cost us 20 bucks! and painting over the part where pat wrote ‘pat rocks’ on the wall…hahah bastard!
• then sleep…early to bed sunday morning!!!

how quickly life turns from boring to exciting…

i have two and a half hours to go…i best get started…

ive never loved weekends so much in my life!!!

omg shoot me now…

im bored…nothing is exciting…EVERYTHING BORES ME…

i went from 4 weeks of there being not enough time in the day to get everything done and it was mad stress…to now being bored out of my mind!!! theres stuff to do but none of it i want to do and i find myself searching celebrity blogs all day long instead of getting work done…but this in turn makes me hate the internet cause i end up staring at it all day and my brain wants to explode…

there is nothing exciting happening…

the shipping company lost our lining and im suppose to call them cause they didn’t get back to me today but i really don’t want to cause seriously fuck you guys are idiots…

my lunch sucks and that makes me sad…i need some meat…i dont even remember the last time i had meat in my lunch…its just been an explosion of left over veggies…and then by 3 in the afternoon i go crazy cause im just not satisfied with my lunch and i sneak out and go to the gas station and stuff my face with junk food and that makes me feel happy for 3 seconds before i feel sick…

nothing exciting for lunch EITHER…

you know when your alarm wakes you up so you hit snooze but in the 5 minutes that you fall asleep again you have a really involved dream that seems like it really should have taken an hour to occur…this morning i had a 5 minute nightmare where i was at a mall and there were these large screens on the wall playing a documentary of these chicks having abortions and they were showing all the goory details and i almost had a friggin heart attack in seeing these innocent babies killed and i wanted to die…i woke up traumatized…now im not going to get into my personal view on abortions but the thought that occur…and so frequently at that breaks my heart and makes fume…but anyways i cant even think about it cause it will just make me upset…

then it took me a million hours to get dressed cause I have no nice clothes and im bored with everything and all i own is a million concert t-shirts and nothing actually decent enough to wear to work that makes me feel good about myself…there is nothing exciting in my closet…

see the excitement…where has it all gone???

and so here i am having to re due 6 costings cause the price of the fabric changed…i cant stand the thrill…its just too much…

the only thing that de-bores the whole situation is my over reaction to any joke that chad makes…but only because he laughs so hard that it makes me laugh…

this is what i need right now…

new clothes
meat
booze
a party