i have a lot of time to waste this week…it is the calm before the fashion storm that is spring production…its odd how you will get an entire week where there is nothing but tiny jobs to do that slowly fill up parts of your day…and then the week later you can barely breath and have to stay late every night…fashion is an emotional rollercoaster…

ive been printing coloured pictures of friends and whatnot to stick on the big window in front of my desk…its the only wall space i have…plus it gives me something to do when no one is looking…and it gives me something to look at when i want to die of boredum…

today is halloween and my moms birthday…there will be no dressing up which makes me sad…however alicia and i decided to do SOMETHING…so i wore my lumberjack hat and she dressed as an 80s dancer…tonight will prob. be lame with me yelling at all the hooligan kids that piss me off every year because i am 80 years old and hate people walking around in the middle of the night being asshats…plus chad will be hella paranoid cause his car will be parked outside my house and so the whole night will just be filled with worry…

maybe i will make chad wear something funny tonight…i will post pictures tomorrow…

oh yea i remember a story…its short…but anyways…last night some guys from strata came over to look at the deck cause its rotting and they are going to re due it…they spent like half an hour looking around and what not…then they left and decided to hang out in the hallway to discuss their decision…mean while…chad oblivious to this decided to belt out ‘can you feel the love tonight’ in full volume deep man voice…i burst in hysteria…he gives me a strange look like ‘its not that funny’…so i say to him…you do know they are standing right out there in the hall…and if we can hear them talk im pretty sure they just heard you sing that…hahahaha…the look on his face was priceless…

it was funny…

im glad my boo boos is home…

omg did i just say that…

death cramps are making me delirious…

deliiiiriiiouuuusssss…WOOHOO…i like posts when i go crazy…CRAZY…

i want soup.

and pills.

this post is gigantic and part of matts birthday assortments of gifts…its only right that i dedicate a portion of my blog to him after all…



we went to club monaco so matt could buy a $400 pea coat…but stupid me forgot take a picture of the coat…SMRT



then we went to stuff our faces with cheese burgers…




underground parking…




matt was happy with how skinny his legs look in this picture…

matt thought this picture was super hot…

chads place…

classic car shots…




Bosa Foods…




Safeway…








wasting time before dinner…


The Swish Chalet!








oh yea…in the picture above is the family of ‘large’ people who would not stop stuffing their faces…it was a little bit much…


YUM

Matts new cell phone that you cant get here yet and is touch screen…its pretty crazy…him and all his damn gadgets…

so that was our day of birthday fun-ness…we ended off the night by watching Rap City on much music…it was highly amusing and full of half naked black asses…but i guess it wasnt that amusing since it made me want to go to bed at 9 30…which i then did only to be woken up at 1 30 by drunk chad and tony in toronto telling me that tony broke his pipe and chad was excited for the banquet on saturday…interesting i dare say…but then thanks to that phone call i couldnt fall back asleep until 3 and then had to get up at 7 30…yea it was a very retarted weekend for myself…very…

anyways this post is huge and i should stop adding to it or its going to explode…

ok can things please get back to normal this week…

i dont want to participate in society today

some jackass parked too close to my car and now i cant get out of my parking space and its making me super paranoid because i parked on a hill and i drive a stick and im pretty sure there is no possible way to get out of there unless i stall my car 50 times and hit all the other cars while attempting to back up…this is the second time hes done this and i want to explode…i think he works in the building beside us and it doesnt make any sence cause i watched him park and he backed up until he was an inch away from my car but made sure to leave 3 feet in front of him from the next car…i am going insane with rage thinking about this…and i guess it also doesnt help that my boss decided to squeeze her giant van in the tiny space that was left behind my car thus locking me in there till hell freezes over…

then i got a txt message informing me that aside from my boss i would be the only on in today unlike what was discussed yesterday which means the team projects that were suppose to fill up my time now leave me here jobless…

i think i am just looking for the negative things about today….at least i got to go for a bit of a walk in this amazing weather earlier this morning…it was most refreshing…

we had tacos last night for the last super…i stuffed my face like there was no tomorrow and was perfectly fine…until i had a shower and put my pjs on and then i felt like the world was going to end…they were so good tho…with the red onions and the avocados…yumtastic…

one of the contractors complimented me this morning and told me i looked so stylish and good…ha…he said i reminded him of the girl from the matrix…maybe it was my boots…anyways hes pretty much the coolest of the contractors cause he phones me a million times a day and has questions about everything…and for an older asian guy he has the most amazing hair…just horrible teeth…

ugh i dont know why this parked car thing is making me crazy…ugh

***Edit

I decided to go out for lunch to waste time which meant i had to move my car and in reality i didnt stall and it was easier then i thought…but to LOOK at the way the guy parked…you would have freaked out too…anyways that over dramatic moment is now over…

we have fun together
aahhhhhhhpppppffffffttttt….

i have spent the past 2 and a half hours looking for fabric swatches that i cant find and i am going mental…one cause i cant find them and two because the minute i do i will have nothing more to do and i do not want to sit here for the rest of the day looking like i am busy when really i am just faking it…

ugh the tired bug just hit me and now im super tired which is not good…but i guess i can catch up on sleep and stuff this weekend since i am being abandoned…

i have been overly dramatic about chadwick leaving this week…more dramatic then i was for both Sweden and Korea…and its pretty stupid because him going away this weekend is pretty much the prefect thing because its matts birthday so i get to spend time with him on saturday plus i have the entire weekend to catch up on a million projects that are sitting in my basement calling my name…but i guess being Italian and being dramatic go hand in hand…

some how we all showed up today wearing something green…alicias got a green sweater, claudia has a green scarf, and i have a green/turquoise in both…we all got the memo…

maybe i should go for a walk in the wet street to get away from this fabric finding stress…need to clear my brain and wake up so i can get on with the rest of the day and not fall hopelessly asleep…asleep…asleep…

im going to bed at 10 tonight…the end

chad asked me to pick up some milk on my way over
but instead i sit here in this room that needs clothes picked off of it
with hair that is still wet
with papers to organize
wasting time

i should get going but feel like taking a lazy moment out for myself

i filed my nails down and now they look better…considering i broke one yesterday trying to get someone to roll his big green ass over…it was most unfortunate

i really dont want to head out there in this weather
but someone needs his milk
i dont want to do anything

my legs smell like a mans face because i ran out of shaving cream and had to borrow my brothers whos shaving cream has aftershave in it…therefore i smell like a man…or a girl covered in aftershave

my hair is getting frizzy so i should blow dry it

more sweater pictures from my uncles 50th birthday to chads dismay…

its friday and i am leaving at 1 30 and i am friggin excited about that because for the past two days i have done nothing but sit in this chair and organize fabrics for spring and its driving me crazy and makes me want to screem until i explode into a million peices…

poignant
very

we have this fabric called Panama and i swear to you ever single time we talk about it Panama comes on the radio…it is the creepiest thing ever and has happened at least 4 times in the past month…so bizzare…

alicia and her boyfriend adam are going as kelly and zack from saved by the bell for halloween…and i told alicia that my dad use to have the cell phone that zack carried around…the super huge grey one…so i got my dad to find it so adam could use it as part of his costume…omg the thing is a beast…i need to post it one of these days…

IM GOING MENTAL sitting here and all i can think about is doing what i got to do at 130 and then getting home hopefully by 3 which means i will have the place to myself and i will cuddle on the couch infront of the TV with some snacks and OH i am so going to the cheese grotto to get some to die for cheese and crackers and i will eat them all up before chad gets home and it will be fabulous! ok now i am way to excited…

i love kelly kapowski and i want to marry zack morris…

i feel like a turd…a turd named ferguson…i dunno whats with me tonight…

there is work to be done in the basement but i cant bring myself to do it…i feel weirdly nervous about something but i dont know what that something is…its like i cant go ahead and do what needs to be done until i check in…but im not getting a response which leaves me in this place of worry…i hate this feeling…

i cut my hair on saturday…guess you cant really tell by the picture…there are lots of short layers and i dont know what to do with them unless i straighten them but the purpose of this haircut was to cut off all gross dried ends from all the straightening prior so to straighten now just doesnt make sense…i dont know how to feel about my hair…im a little lost…

im just lost in general tonight..

i ate some chips at lunch and i can still taste them and its making me sick…no matter what i eat or drink or chew on i can still taste them…

right now i feel like im just going with the flow even tho the flow isnt what i want because i have this feeling that in the end the parts of the flow i want to change will change on their own and better then i could change them and with a lot less frustration on my part…

im just sitting in this abyss waiting for the change…waiting for the light…watching things happen around me…waiting for something…but i dont know what that is yet…

i dont know how i should feel about a lot of things…

at least there are still good parts and things to look forward to these days…like lazy friday night fires…