more sweater pictures from my uncles 50th birthday to chads dismay…

its friday and i am leaving at 1 30 and i am friggin excited about that because for the past two days i have done nothing but sit in this chair and organize fabrics for spring and its driving me crazy and makes me want to screem until i explode into a million peices…

poignant
very

we have this fabric called Panama and i swear to you ever single time we talk about it Panama comes on the radio…it is the creepiest thing ever and has happened at least 4 times in the past month…so bizzare…

alicia and her boyfriend adam are going as kelly and zack from saved by the bell for halloween…and i told alicia that my dad use to have the cell phone that zack carried around…the super huge grey one…so i got my dad to find it so adam could use it as part of his costume…omg the thing is a beast…i need to post it one of these days…

IM GOING MENTAL sitting here and all i can think about is doing what i got to do at 130 and then getting home hopefully by 3 which means i will have the place to myself and i will cuddle on the couch infront of the TV with some snacks and OH i am so going to the cheese grotto to get some to die for cheese and crackers and i will eat them all up before chad gets home and it will be fabulous! ok now i am way to excited…

i love kelly kapowski and i want to marry zack morris…

i feel like a turd…a turd named ferguson…i dunno whats with me tonight…

there is work to be done in the basement but i cant bring myself to do it…i feel weirdly nervous about something but i dont know what that something is…its like i cant go ahead and do what needs to be done until i check in…but im not getting a response which leaves me in this place of worry…i hate this feeling…

i cut my hair on saturday…guess you cant really tell by the picture…there are lots of short layers and i dont know what to do with them unless i straighten them but the purpose of this haircut was to cut off all gross dried ends from all the straightening prior so to straighten now just doesnt make sense…i dont know how to feel about my hair…im a little lost…

im just lost in general tonight..

i ate some chips at lunch and i can still taste them and its making me sick…no matter what i eat or drink or chew on i can still taste them…

right now i feel like im just going with the flow even tho the flow isnt what i want because i have this feeling that in the end the parts of the flow i want to change will change on their own and better then i could change them and with a lot less frustration on my part…

im just sitting in this abyss waiting for the change…waiting for the light…watching things happen around me…waiting for something…but i dont know what that is yet…

i dont know how i should feel about a lot of things…

at least there are still good parts and things to look forward to these days…like lazy friday night fires…

so you know how i keep going on and on about how im cold and i dont feel well and yadda yadda…well after weeks of feelings like i was getting a cold but having nothing come out of it i am FINALLY with cold and hopefully on the road to recovery…its been very odd really…but it allowed me to go home early from work yesterday with a fever (woohoo!) and today im not as bad but still majorly stuffed up…its crappy but hopefully this means i will be getting better and back to normal very soon…

so its rainy and dark outside…super gross…which would mean that it is the perfect weather for a nice toasty fire…and it just so happens thats the chimney was checked today and the ‘go-ahead’ to use it was given so guess whos is super excited to light fires every night from now to eternity…yes you guessed it…tho im not sure if i trust him or not these days…

oh yea and the canucks sucked last night…well 3rd period wise…but did you see the interview with taylor pyatt…SO HOT…i love his eyes…dream boat…

anyways…

i hope there is lots of good yummi food for dinner tonight…ive got the cold munchies and am starving…starve a fever feed a cold…is that how it goes!?

either way…i just want to stuff my face…

LOOK!!! PICTURES!!! A POST!!! DONE BY ME!!!

also you might enjoy the fact that we are NOT at the cambie this time…

sweet shirt! thanks chad!




me attempting to hide my gaping face wound…


Double Video!


adorable…also what his nose looked like BEFORE he broke it…




explaining the ‘ciavarro guide to love and life’


gangster much



so yea these pictures are from LAST friday…and yes i have had no time to post them and yadda yadda yadda…

we watched hockey and they lost…but then we watched the next night and they won tho they did give us a bit of a heart attack…we didnt watch on wednesday and they lost…horribly…but they are playing tonight…and pat and his lady are coming for dinner and im going to make roasted potatoes and some salads…and chad is going to burn some chicken on the BBQ and hopefully…just hopefully we can beat edmonton and their coach who looks like matts dad…

then we will all clean up the gigantic mess ciavarro and zaph made while installing the ceiling and maybe then we will all get drunk and lazy on the fuzzy wool rug…

so now i am off to buy some clothes from work…which havent been budgeted yet…woops…and im prob. spending more then i need to and that will prob. cause chad to throw me down the stairs…HA…yea right…

alicia says hi!

remember when i blogged all the time…
yea that clearly aint happenin anymore…
life has still not become relaxing but rather exhausting…
and every time i start to feel better i just end up getting sick again…
my body is off…maybe its the lack of taking a break…
chad and i have been recycling germs…
i have pictures from the weekend…i will upload them tonight…

we went to ikea last night and chad bought me the $120 wool rug i wanted…that made me very excited…other then that ikea was a little disappointing…but i think that was cause chad was feeling sick and i felt guilty wanting to spend 2 hours and $500 bucks on stuff…i’ll just go back one day by myself and wonder and buy random fun stuff…which reminds me i should go to urban outfitters for stuff too…although their stuff doesn’t match the look of the cave like nest…

its beginning to look like a cabin…my vision is coming true…

ok…im a little delirious right now…

crap this was a random post…but maybe thats cause im going mental…

wool rug!