I actually have a million things I could be doing right now but instead I have decided to not do them and blog for 5 minutes. Because that makes sense.

Its 10:20 and I am still so freaking cold that my hands find it hard to type. I’m been sitting on them trying to warm them up but the blue dye from my new jeans are turning them blue, which only makes them look like I am dying from coldness.

My cold sore looks more ghastly today but the medicine is helping it along quite a bit. I pray to God it goes away in time for the banquet.

I had a dentist appt. scheduled for 7am tomorrow morning but because of the cold sore I had it postponed until Halloween. A little weird yes. I mean who goes to the dentist on Halloween the candy eating fest of the year? But its way better then having to get up at 6 just to be at the dentist at 7. I don’t know why I booked it so early. I really was not thinking.

Is it weird that two years ago this time Chad and I basically started dating and two years later we are married!? Its so crazy when you think about it.

Ok Lining and Binding are calling my name. Hopefully I will be able to take off my winter coat by 11am.

Later.

The left side of the inside of my nose has been feeling funny that last few days and so assuming it was a cold sore I jumped on it with some Abreva. This morning I woke up with the right side of my nose engulfed in a rather large cold sore. Sweet! I’m pretty excited about it!

I bought this cool looking address book the other night at Chapters and decided to fill it in with addresses from our wedding invite list last night. Chad thought it was the biggest waste of time because he prefers to do everything digitally, but I’ve always wanted to have an address book full of friends and family. The only thing I am missing from everyone is their phone numbers.

I think we are super close to figuring out our halloween costumes, but I am not giving away any clues. If we do the easier one I’ve already got everything set. If we do the harder on I’ve got to get my butt in gear for it. I’ve got so many ideas rolling in my head now.

Ahhh my stupid cold sore is driving me nuts!

I have to go back to the bank for the 3rd time todays because people are stupid. I went there weeks ago to change all my account info with my new last name and address and all that so I could get new cards and I wait and waited and nothing happed. I phoned them up and they had no record of a change occuring or anything. SO frustrating. I swear the lady I gave my info to was not even paying attention. Anyways, they said for me to go back to the bank and re submit all my info. So I did that yesterday but they required some info from Chad since his name is on the account as well. I have to go back today with the rest of the info so HOPEFULLY this can all get changed over and I can finally have cards that say the right last name. You would not believe how much trouble I have had over the past few weeks with using my original cards and then people wanting to see my drivers license and not having the names match. Its such a pain. Once I get that done I will have to figure out why none of my other cards have been changed yet even though I sent in request forms weeks ago. This is such a pain.

The tip of my middle finger is freezing. Is that normal?

I remember those days. Dark and cloudy and depressing. Lonely and sad.

One of my best friends is going through a break up. She is devastated and everything she is going through reminds me of the dark days post break ups. The worst feelings in the world. Feeling like you are in this sink hole that you will never get out of. I know the feelings all to well.

I wish there was something I could do to make all the pain go away. I’ve been thinking about her situation from the moment I got word there was something wrong. I can’t stop thinking about it.

Sense and Sensibility was on last night. I caught it at the point when Willoughby breaks Marianne’s heart. I couldn’t help but relate that to the current situation. My heart sank.

This whole thing is making me feel really down and its not even me who is going through it. Its like I’m having sympathy pains. Every time I hear from her I want to cry.

Maybe I’m just being over dramatic but my heart is just breaking for her.

I had to get up at 630 this morning in order to meet Alicia and Claudia downtown at 8. We attended a WGSN Trend Report to learn all about Spring 09 & Fall 09 colours and trends. I use to go to these things every year because they were provided by the school. Thankfully our company paid for all of us to attend this year.

Its always at the ‘Fashion Events’ where I totally feel out of the picture. My clothes are so practical and half of the stuff I wear, I wear to keep warm because I’m always cold. And maybe its a ridiculous statement to make when I say I need to start buying some unpractical pieces but that’s the way I feel. I’m so full of basics. I dunno. In the ‘real world’ I am ok with my style and my look but at these events I feel out of place. Not entirely, but theres definitely room for improvement.

But then again does it really make sense to change who I am and what I am comfortable with just to ‘fit in’ with a group of people I don’t really associate with and only see a few times a year? Do I really need to match that hard core fashion crowd when I myself am not a hard core fashion subscriber? These thoughts always run through my head when I’m at these events. I am constantly re thinking my wardrobe. Thankfully I have the flexibility and allowance to do so.

I am such a nut bar.

On a totally un fashion related topic I am srsly coming down with something. My throat feels deathly and its causing the rest of my body to feel deathly. Am SO tempted to go home early today. I need drugs and a bed. I am getting worse people.

And I have no idea where Chad is.

Ok so the whole new TV new computer turned into a bit of a disaster last night.

I stopped off after work to buy some fresh bread for dinner when I get a phone call from Chad telling me that he tried hooking his computer and it kept crashing so he was going to go back to the place that build it to get it fixed. This in turn meant that all our plans for the evening would be shot because of how obsessive he gets over his computer.

I walk in the front door and there are boxes and computer parts everywhere. The place is a computer battle field. I walk into the bedroom and there are boxes and clothes and crap everywhere. A hammer in the bed under covers and a beautiful wide screen TV perched up on the dresser.

I decided to have a shower while I waited for Chachi to get home and then snuggled in bed watching the new TV instead of cleaning up, because, why not.

So he FINALLY gets home and tries out his computer again and its still going crazy and so hes going crazy cause he doesn’t know whats wrong with it and yadda yadda yadda. I start cleaning up and making dinner. We were having pasta which is usually Chad favorite thing to make.

Every time we have pasta we have bread and dip it in oil and vinegar. So I go to grab a piece of bread, dip it, eat it, and apparently breath in through my mouth at the same time as the piece of bread enters my mouth causing the bits of vinegar on the bread to fly back hitting my throat and I’m assuming my air way because the second it did that my throat started burning and I started choking. Like violently burning and choking and coughing. So my body thought in order to solve this issue it would produce obscene amounts of saliva to calm everything down which just meant that I was drooling everywhere. It was a sight to be seen. I was freaking out because of the pain and all the drool and I didn’t know what to do but cough to try and relive the pain. Chad comes running thinking I’m dying or something. I pretty much was.

Eventually everything calmed down but my throat was clearly damaged. It killed all night long, which went nicely with my right knee which decided to give out earlier in the day causing it to be painful to walk (I forgot to mention that). I was a disaster. As per usual.

After dinner Chad was still fighting with his computer but figured out it had to do with his old keyboard and mouse. So he went out to Future Shop to get a new set and I sat wrapped up in the couch. For some reason the whole throat burning incident made me actually feel like I was coming down with a cold. I felt so gross that I quickly did the dishes, cleaned up a bit and then snuggled the rest of the evening away in bed while watching TV (this is pretty much something I’ve wanted to do every night of my life). This TV is going to make me into the biggest sloth.

Here I am watching Supersized vs. Superskinny.

For some God forsaken reason I was obsessed with watching DOG and sat glued to the TV for an hour. Maybe it was because they were trying to track down some giant lesbo who actually looked like a guy . I’m all about the lesbos.

Chad was very concerned that I felt extremely left out by the fact that he was so engrossed with his computer and kept coming over to assure me he loved me more then the computer. But it was ok as I was very prepared for him to be engrossed with the computer and was quite happy to have some bonding time with my new friend Mr. Flat Screen.

With this new computer and new TV I think we are set nicely on the path to becoming that couple that never sees each other and begins to have separate lives via their electronics. HA.