I had a shower. Finally. But that’s as far as I’ve got. I have no energy. All I do is sit here, lay here but it doesn’t make me want to blog or surf the net or do anything. I just feel so weak. I don’t know whats going on in the outside world but I like it because I am just to damn tired to care. I’m getting better very slowly. Exhausted is the one word I keep repeating to myself. My God I had no idea how many things you do in a day involve the use of neck muscles.

When I feel more rested I will re-tell my experience of the hospital and days following. For now a short post to update the world that I am alive, slowly inching my way back to normalcy, and ever so much yearning for yet another nap. I haven’t seen the incision yet because its still all bandaged up but they pretty much placed it in the perfect position and I’m pretty sure I got to keep all three of my freckles. Its the small things like that that excite me. Once everything heals and I can once again lift my head with out straining every muscle in my neck, I think I will be left with a pretty cool scar.

And for those who wondered – Stitched or Staples…I got neither. Stitches underneith the skin to hold all the muscles together and stereo strips on top. Nice and simple.

Ok I’ve only been awak for 4 hours but I need a nap.

I don’t know if you can see the lump or not. Its basically where my three freckles are. I love those freckles. It will be sad to see them go.

OK I am leaving in an hour. I need to go pack. I am stealing Chads Blackberry so I might be online later today if I feel OK and need to waste time while I lay in a hospital bed all bored.

I wonder if I will get staples or stitches….

I had two dinners tonight.

My mom called and asked if I wanted to come for dinner, she had made extra and said I could have it. I had planned to work late as there was stuff I wanted to get done and I knew Chad wasn’t coming home until later to so at first I declinded. Then I realized that I probably could fit in everything so thats what I did.

I finished what I could then left at 5 to go eat dinner at Moms, then I headed home and made a late dinner for Chad and I. Just a simple home made Pesto Pasta. I can’t eat anything tomorrow so I might as well stuff myself today. It is Fat Tuesday after all!

I began to stress out this morning because of all I had to do at work today. I had to train my supervisor, which you would think is backwards because she should know all the procedures that I do, but at the time she came into the company there was a lot of other things she had to take over and never got the chance to learn all the stuff I do. That and I’ve never been away for more then a week so she hasn’t had to take over so much of my job. Today was productive though which was really good and she ended up helping me out a lot.

The Boss then pulled me aside and told me not to stress out about stuff and that if I didn’t get everything done today it wasn’t the end of the world. She told me to relax and to do what I needed for myself. She said if there was anything I wanted to work on at home to make up some hours I could, as well I could pick up some Saturday shifts if I wanted to. She gave me a hug when I left and actually started to tear up. Its cute that she thinks of us girls as her daughters and worries about us. Everyone was in a very loving mood today. I guess you realize how much someone means to you when all of a sudden they are about to go through something serious and won’t be around for a while. It definitely made me feel special.

I’ve been surprisingly positive today. It seems that everyone around me is more worried about this whole thing I am. Everyone keeps wishing me good luck and telling me everything is going to be ok. I think a part of me is actually looking forward to the experience. I know that sounds weird, but because I know things will be ok and its not the most serious of surgeries I can focus on other things. Experiences help you grow as a person and make you wiser so I just look at this as something to go through in life. Chad thinks I’m just putting on my tough girl face,  and I know that I partially am, but I really am not as sacred as I thought I would be. Maybe tomorrow morning will be another story.

But I’m not going to lie, I am looking forward to having an excuse to stay home and relax.

I’ll be heading to the hospital tomorrow at lunch so I will post before I leave.

Yes so I was going to post but now I have no time. I am rushed with stuff I have to do before Wednesday and now its hit Full Speed Ahead. Everything was fine and dandy until 75 rolls of fabric decided to be deliverd to the warehouse and I have no paper work for it and they want to recieve it by tomorrow. So now I have to do that on top of everything I have to do in preperation for my departure tomorrow. UGH. Slightly stressful but now I am hyped up with energy.

Ok so I really can’t talk, too much to do.

The Pre-Admissions clinic today was good. It ended up being shorter then I though and basically was just a review of whats going to happen on Wednesday. Only problem was that I couldn’t find parking and by the time I did I was running late so I ran to the office and when they went to take my heart beat and blood pressure everything was through the roof because I hoofed it to the office and my heart was racing and I couldn’t breath because I was freaking out about being late so I had to wait and calm down before they tested me again. I am such a nut.

That was my only story of the day.

I need to cost 5 things and then some how start on the organization of 75 rolls of fabric that I know nothing about.

Thank God it is Taco night.

Wednesday. 2:30 pm. Surgery Time Bitches.

This is what dinner looked like last night. You mix Mayo, Dijon Mustard. Garlic, & Thyme into a dressing. Get some chicken and a bunch of veggies. Put them in a baking pan. Slather on the dressing and bake! I added some bacon and chives once it was done. So good! The chicken dried out quickly though so I think the next time I am going to cut it into strips or something.

Ha. I forgot to blog today. Now I have half an hour to do it. Well technically I don’t but I only ever really blog when I am at work which is why I only have 30 minutes to do so. I’m waiting for Alicia to edit some pictures so I can post them. I don’t know if I will actually get to them today but if not tomorrow.

I am so stuffed from lunch. SO STUFFED. And Chad is at home whining about how hungry he is. Poor baby.

Got a call from the ‘Ospital today. They need me to come in on Monday for a Pre-Admissions Clinic. Not sure what thats all about. I guess basically to get me ready for surgery and to make sure I have all my tests done. It actually sounds like a good idea because I will be able to understand whats going to happen and ask questions and stuff.

I’ve got to organize my Ipod this weekend so that I got it ready for Wednesday.

Only two more days of work left. That went by fast. I gotta organize a  bunch of stuff there too for when I am gone. Monday and Tuesday are going to be busy.

I don’t get paid for all of the time I am taking off for the surgery which is ok and I figured as much. I won’t be missing too many days, but I did come up with a project that I can do from home so I can make up hours doing that. Its going to take me a long time to actually finish it all which is good. It’ll give me something to do when I’m bored and put some extra money in my pocket.

Ok it’s 5:00. I am heading home. ITS THE FRIGGIN WEEKEND!!!