
I wasn’t very nervous the day of the surgery. I got up and had a shower. I made the bed, packed my things and left for the hospital at around 12. I was a little uneasy when I went to the admissions office and Chad was even worse. A volunteer brought me to where I had to be and I was shown to my room. I had the center bed and there were two other patients already there; a woman to my right and an older man to my left. The curtains were drawn and I couldn’t see what the looks like, only what the sounded like.
The nurse gave me some robes and asked me to change. That’s when it hit me what was about to happen. As much as I had visited hospitals in the past it was very strange to look down at the bed and realize that this was where I was going to be ‘living’ for the next little while. I started to cry. I got changed and got into bed. Chad sat beside me and gave me a hug. Another nurse came into the room and told me that they were ahead of schedule so I would be going into surgery an hour early. They came in right away and gave me some medicine for nausea, and attempted to start an IV.

Because I hadn’t eaten or drank anything since 10pm the night before my veins were very weak and the nurse attempting to do it was having a lot of trouble finding one. She stuck it in right above my thumb but it went too deep and missed the vein, then she couldn’t find it any more. She then attempted further down my arm. She stuck it in, taped it up and turned on the IV, except it wouldn’t drip. She thought that the needle might have been blocked somewhere so she took a syringe full of liquid and forced it through which only caused a huge lump under my skin and a lot of pain. The needle was clearly not in my vein.
The OR nurse came to get me quite quickly so they didn’t have a chance to fix the IV drip which concerned Chad quite a bit. He followed me to the Pre-Op room where I waited for about 20 minutes. I had several doctors and nurses come in and check me out. Apparently there were a few students as well that were sitting in on my surgery and all wanted to see what my neck looked like. One of the nurses joked that I was quite popular that day.
The anesthetist came in and fixed my IV and joked with me and was quite sweet. He could tell that Chad was in worse spirits then I was. Once I got over the initial shock and realization of what was going to happen I was quite calm and ok with everything. I knew I wouldn’t feel any pain and when I woke up everything would be better. Chad on the other hand just didn’t know how to handle it all. I think it was all to much for him.

Soon enough the nurse came to take me to the OR. Chad kissed me good bye and I was wheeled off. We entered the OR which was so serial, like I was on the set of ER. I was shifted over to the operating table and had warm blankets placed on me. The nurse started chatting about how it was snowing insanely outside when the anesthetist and other staff members entered the room. All of a sudden I felt the need to cough so I went to do so and I felt this weird wave of sleepiness come over me. Then the oxygen mask was placed on my face and I knew it was time.
I woke up an hour and a half later in the Post-Op room. My first sensation was to rip my oxygen mask off which I did to the nurses surprise. I was in a state of being awake and asleep but I couldn’t open my for more then 5 seconds and I couldn’t actually fall asleep. It was very frustrating. My next sensation was of over heating so I kicked off my blankets and tore off the big socks they made me wear with my toes. The nurse watching me asked what was wrong and I told her I was too hot. She said I couldn’t take off all the sheets until I was back at my room which did not make me happy in my half here half there state. She then asked me if I felt anything else and I told her that I was thirsty and I felt like I was going to throw up. She said I would again have to wait until I got to my room for some water and medicine. I must have woken up late because I was in the Post-Op room for an hour and once I woke up I was only laying there for 15 minutes before they wheeled me out.
I was then wheeled through all the hallways to my room. I tried to open my eyes to find Chad. I finally did and waved at him while completely out of it. I was wheeled to my room and shimmied over to my bed. Chad came in and grabbed my hand. He asked how I was feeling and I asked him for some water. He went out to the nurses and asked for something and they gave him a bottle. He was pretty upset seeing me so out of it.

The next set of events were fuzzy. I was completely out of it and went back and forth from being awake to being asleep, not really knowing what was going on. Dinner was brought to me but I had no idea. I attempted to eat a bit of pudding and actually kept it down.
My Mom showed up around 6:30 to visit. With in 5 minutes of her being there I bolted straight up and proceeded to vomit all the water and pudding I had just consumed. Thankfully not to shortly after that the nurse came and gave me some Gravol and I instantly felt better. I eventually fell asleep for a while and woke up around 8. I asked Chad to help me get up for a second so I could attempt to use the bathroom while still attached to the IV. I wasn’t in a lot of pain because of the Morphine but my tummy was the worst. Once Chad helped me I told him that he could go home because I was going to go to bed anyways. He kissed me good-bye and told me he would see me bright and early in the morning.

I instantly fell asleep and woke up at about 10 feeling completely refreshed which was strange. I grabbed my phone and txt’d Chad that I was awake and feeling better. He was relived by that. I then fell asleep and was woken up again to a weird sensation occurring on left hand. I looked over in the dark and saw that my hand was wet and that my IV had actually fallen out. I buzzed for the nurse who came and saw and went to grab some supplies. I then reached over to grab my phone to see what time it was when I realized that blood was pouring out of the hole all over my hand and the bed. Not good. Thankfully she came and cleaned everything up. I then spent the next 6 hours falling asleep for an hour and then being wide awake for an hour. I listened to my iPod for a bit and surfed around on the Blackberry and attempted to get some rest.
The lady beside me had had surgery on her feet. I could hear her speaking Fijian or Filipino to the nurse. She was in a lot of pain and was constantly ringing her for medication or help. They ended up turning on all the lights on her side of the room for her the entire night which is most likely why I couldn’t sleep. I didn’t complain though because I was lucky enough NOT to be in pain and I really didn’t was to be a nuisance. The man beside me as well kept ringing for the nurses all night long saying he wanted to go home and consistently complained about being constipated. The sounds coming from there were quite interesting.

I finally fell asleep at about 5 for 2 hours waking up at 7 when one of the doctors and students came to see how I was doing. They checked me out and said I was able to leave at any point. I messaged Chad to let him know. They checked my blood pressure and my temperature and replaced my bandages. Chad showed up and was so happy to see me awake and not totally out of it and drugged. I got changed and the Specialist came to see how I was doing. He said everything went well and that I would be getting the results in a week or two. I packed up my things and headed out of there. I couldn’t wait to get home.
The time since then has been interesting. I was in a lot of pain when I got home but opted not to take T3s as I heard that they were very hard on your stomach. Instead I opted for some extra strength Tylenol. I tried to eat some food and rest a bit the first few days which I did. Every muscle in my neck was so sore that I had to physically move my head with my hands to re position it. My recovery came to a halt though when I began to suffer from a lot of stomach pain causing me to not eat and wake up every night to puke. I couldn’t figure it out and was getting so frustrated with it all. It wasn’t until about Sunday that I realized that it was probably the extra strength Tylenol that was destroying my stomach. As soon as my neck started to feel better and less painful I was able to stop taking them and magically my stomach aches went away.

Yesterday was the first day I actually ate 3 full meals and felt normal. It was such a relief not to be in pain and not to puke everything I had just consumed. I am slowly getting back to normal with the last thing I have to concur is actually sleeping through the night. I still find myself waking up several time every few hours.
Its been a long journey and was much more difficult then I had imagined. I just hope that the test results come back negative for Cancer because I really don’t think I can do this again. Its going to take a while for my stomach to get back to the way it was.

Thankfully the scar is actually on my collar bone and not my neck which basically means that a crew-neck t-shirt will cover it. At the same time it doesn’t look very big and gross right now so I am hoping it heals nicely and will look kind of cool when its all said and done.
Quite the adventure I’ve been on so far.