There is something to be said about things getting ‘back to normal’. I’m not the kind of person who could just live always in limbo, not really knowing what to do from day to day. Holidays are great, days off are amazing, but there is always a part of me that yearns to go back to work, and get back into making regular dinners, and cleaning schedules.

The holidays were good. Lots of family, lots of eating, lots of running around. I had my fair share of laying on the couch watching TV and taking naps and relaxing. Now it’s time to get back into it.

Today feels like a weird transition day. The first day back kind of always is. I think as excited I am about this new year, this new start, this back to normalcy, there is a part of me that is nervous and apprehensive. The first three months of this year and going to be really big, stressful, and different, and because I don’t know what to expect, I don’t know how to prepare for them.

I guess I will start off by taking a step back from all the eating, drinking, and socializing that was December. Take a step back and enter the cave I use to live in. Work for Chad comes to a full on, take over of life in three weeks, so I guess there really won’t be that much time to go out anyways. It’s going to be me, and DVDs, and the couch for the next 30 days, at least.

This month I need time alone and dates with the husband.

I think its pretty clear to say that 2009 just wasn’t my year. Everything the could go wrong did go wrong, and there is not much point in doing a review of it all. Yes, there were good parts, camping trips and nights out, but in the face of it all, it just wasn’t a positive year.

I have a lot of hope for 2010. Even the number just sounds better. 2010 is going to be the year where things get better. I am going to focus on myself. I’m going to do the things I love. I’m going to get healthy. I am going to exercise. I am going to stop putting things off. I’m going to stand up for what I want. I am going to be strong. I am going to be productive. I am going to achieve.

This year is going to be better.