I stole this from Jen, but it’s so true…

“It’s what we think about that makes us unhappy.

Not what we have, who we are, where we are, or what we do.”

(via @iheartquotes)

I feel like being a hater today. There are a couple people on my list I could probably rant about, but then that would make me evil, and even though I try not to be, today I feel like exploding on people. Well, maybe just giving their head a shake because they are seriously clueless. Common sense has left a lot of people, like a lot of people who I thought had it. Ha. What is this world coming to!?

My camera is dead and currently recharging so I have no pictures from the weekend. Not that we really did any thing worth taking pictures of, but I do have some stories and it only makes sense to have the pictures accompany the stories to make them complete. I will say this much, Chad and I both suffered 3 day long sugar comas. It is true.

As for today, I will freeze my ass off in this wind and rain storm beat office.

The worst part of the day? When you realize that someones bowels exploded…in the WOMANS washroom. Ugh. Why can’t people drop deuces at HOME?

“So…do you work part time as an emoticon?”

I said this quote, and I can’t get over how funny it is.

I think I am the only one.

HA

Chad is taking me on a date tonight, apparently. We are going to see Avatar. I feel about Avatar the same way I feel about Space; I don’t like it.

However, with some free Nachos and Sweet Factory candy, I might be pursuaded.

What is this 3D nonsense anyways? What happened to regular TV that you plugged into the wall and didn’t need a box and 20 remotes to run.

I miss the good ol’ days.

I can’t wait for a Friday where I can eat a Steak.

I’m just putting it out there.

I can’t remember when the last time I talked about Italy was, so if I am repeating myself then I apologize.

We’ve booked the trip!

I think I mentioned all the drama going back and forth with work, or maybe I didn’t mention the most recent drama, but it made me really upset, so it’s probably good I don’t go back and talk about it. But, that is old news because everything was worked out and I ended up getting the dates I originally wanted back when we first discussed it. A small saving grace.

We officially booked the trip back in January, but I’ve been so busy with everything else that I haven’t had a moment to think about it, or talk about it, or research it.

We leave September 16th and arrive back in Vancouver October 16th. One month exactly! My parents will be joining us for the full month as well, with Chads parents only doing 3 weeks. I can not express my excitement in words.

Our plan for Italy was to fly into Venice, do some touring up north, then make our way south to Rome, do touring there and end the trip with a tour of Southern Italy. We planned to do everything ourselves, since we know the top half of the country pretty well, but were going to take a guided tour of Southern Italy, since everyone was clueless about that. So we looked up some tours, found the perfect one, based all our dates and everything around this trip, only to realized that all the prices had been given to us were in the wrong currency, meaning the trip was double what we were budgeting for. Well, out the window that went. We looked for another tour to replace it, but none of them were as extensive as this one and they were all pretty expensive. So after much discussion, we decided, we would take all the stops on our ‘Perfect Tour of Southern Italy’ and just drive it ourselves. We would book bed and breakfasts along the way and would have the freedom to stay longer, or cut short, different sites on the tour.

So, our trip to Italy now looks like this…

• Arrive in Rome
• Spend 3-4 days checking things out
• Spend about 7 days driving south, stopping in at all the cities on our list
• Once we are done Southern Italy we drive back up to Rome
• Drop Mom and Dad off at the train station where they take a direct train to Venice so they can spend extra time with family, while Chad, his parents, and I take our time touring up to Florence, Pisa, and Tuscany.
• Meet in Venice and spend a week touring Northern Italy
• Chads parents fly home
• Spend the last week doing mini trips around the city. Go to the beach, maybe a trip to Milan, tour the East Coast, or whatever we want
• Fly back home!

I think the layout of the trip works much better then when we originally planned it. It gives us more time up north with our family, and it will be much easier for us to travel with the north being our home base.

The parentals have been doing most of the reseach for the trip so far, but I finally had some time this past weekend to start looking at stuff. I love researching trips and printing out maps and organizing everything. I’m totally obsessed right now. I want to spend every waking moment organizing this trip!

Looking at all the place we will be seeing and staying make me want to leave RIGHT NOW! Only 6 short months left!

I can’t wait to show Chad Italy. He is going to freak out.

So today is about 100 times less stressful then yesterday was. Yesterday I had to go back into the Cancer Clinic.

After my Radioactive therapy last October, the scan of cancer/thyroid left in my body did not match up with the results of the blood test, so they didn’t know what was going on. They sent me home with the information that I would have to go for more blood tests and then in March, a whole 5 months away, I would get the results of everything and would find out if I had to be Radioactive again.

While the whole Radioactive therapy thing wasn’t painful, it was kind of mentally traumatic, and the thought of having to do it again freaked me out every time I thought about it. I had been so strong through out the whole year, but the thought of being isolated again sent me into panic mode.

So I went for all my blood tests and lived the past 5 months thinking March was a month that didn’t existed. I didn’t want to think about it, I didn’t want to face reality, I just wanted to pretend like nothing was going on.

Then March came. Yesterday came.

I tried to think positively about everything, and even though at my last Family Doctor visit, he said my Thyroid Levels looked good I wasn’t about to count my chickens before they were hatched.

Every time I have gone into a doctors office, by myself, thinking it was no big deal and nothing bad was going to come out of it I’ve been handed a bombshell. This has now shattered my faith of hearing good news.

I was in stomach panic mode all day yesterday. I could only function doing mindless tasking because my brain was too consumed with worry to do any other thinking. The closer it got to 3:00 the more I felt like I was going to puke. Of course I internalised it all and didn’t tell anyone other then Chad. But I know my body. When I worry more then I need to everything comes out ok. I can’t stop myself from worrying; it’s physically and mentally impossible until I face whatever it is I’m suppose to face, then everything goes back to normal. It’s been like this for 1000 years.

So we got to the Cancer Clinic early and sat in the waiting room. Suddenly the thought of my fate hit me as I saw a young woman walk in with no hair. Of course my condition is not that extreme, but it still freaked the crap out of me as to what could have happened. I was totally consumed by feelings of dread.

It didn’t help that they were running late and I didn’t get to see the doctor until 3:30! Sweet Jesus make me suffer.

Everything came back normal.

Praise SHAZZIB!

I have to up my Thyroid pills from 88mg to 100mg, but that’s no big deal.

Because Chad and I are looking to have babies in the next year, he wanted to make sure that everything was 100% OK, so I have to go in for one more scan.

I have to do the same thing as last time. Shot in the Bum on Monday, Shot in the Bum on Tuesday, Scan Wednesday. Then, maybe, just maybe, I will FINALLY get the all clear and just have to go back for check ups.

This is the never ending Thyroid Journey. Every time I think I am SOOO close to it being over, something else comes up. I hope this will finally be the end, for now.