I had a quiet weekend, this weekend. Chad was out most of the timing doing man things and I was home doing a whole lot of nothing.

I managed to finish the 2nd Harry Potter novel on Sunday while wrapped up in 300 blankets. I was freezing cold and no amount of soup could warm me up.

The novelty of our situation is starting to wear off. Obviously we are beyond thankful that my parents have opened up their house to us, but it is starting to hit me just how much I wish we had a space of our own. You can only keep yourself cooped up in your bedroom for so long. Especially when it isn’t exactly the warmest place in the house! When you sit in a big empty house, all you wish is that someone was home to make it not feel so lonely, and when you sit in a big full house, all you wish is that everyone would go out so you can have some alone time. Yes, I know, the grass is always greener.

I realized today that in just over a month we will have been living this whole “transition into the next phase of life” for a year. I did not expect that it would take us a year. Scratch that, I did not expect that it would take us more then a year, considering we haven’t even bought a house yet.

We’ve seen a total of 4 houses in the last month. All of them have been older, heritage-esque homes in New West. We found one that was as close to perfect as we have seen to date, but it wasn’t perfect (not that anything will be). I know that when a house is right, we will feel it, but questions and anxiety start to run through my head. How will I know it is right? Will we ever find something that is right? How will I know that this feeling is the right feeling? I guess you just have to have faith. I knew when I met Chad that it was right, and now I have to trust that when I meet our house, I will know that it is right.

I’ve been spending more and more time sitting in silence, waiting for a voice to tell me what to do. That’s all I really can do right now.

Part of me just questions what all this waiting is for, why do we have to wait so long? Well, we have to wait so long because what is meant to be ours isn’t ready to be ours yet, and once it is I will feel silly that I ever worried and stressed about all the waiting. Didn’t Tom Petty say that the waiting is the hardest part? He was right.

I feel a little forlorn about our situation even though I have nothing to be forlorn about.

I just want a house so damn bad.

I have spent the past few nights reading for an hour or so in bed and then passing out at 10pm. It’s not that I have had stressful or busy days, it’s not like I have been getting up early, but the second I look up from my book and see that it is 10pm I realize how tired I am and I can’t keep my eyes open, so I roll over and I’m out like a light.

I usually don’t tend to read at home, mostly because I have 100 things to do or 100 things to clean, and at the end of the night, it is much easier to snuggle in bed and watch the Food Network and zone out, then to keep my brain active in reading. But, since I no longer have 100 things to do or 100 things to clean, I have found that I have a lot of free time. As well, since we don’t have a TV in our room, I have found myself being drawn to books as a way of passing the time.

I am currently reading Harry Potter. I am doing this because Chad started to read it and borrowed all the books from my cousin, so if there was ever an opportunity to read it, now would be the time.

I was given the very first Harry Potter book as a Birthday present from one of my friends in High School. I did not read, at the time, (for fun, not literally) and I was totally against the huge phenomenon that was Harry Potter, so I but the book on my shelf and never looked at it again. There was no real reason why I was against Harry Potter, I just hated that it was so popular so I wanted nothing to do with it. Typical teenager.

So now I am reading it. The first few chapters were hard to get through only because I wanted to jump in the book and murder Harry’s Aunt, Uncle, and Cousin. Fat sons of bitches. I hope he turns them all into toads. I guess the good thing about never paying attention to Harry Potter is that I have no idea what happens in any of these books, so even though the entire world knows what’s going to happen next, I don’t, and I’d like to keep it that way.

Another interesting note, I went with Elise and Cristina to this store out in the valley called Potters just before Christmas. They usually sell gardening stuff but in December they turn their store into a giant Christmas store. While there Cristina pointed out this adorable white owl sitting in a tree. She said it reminded her of Hedwig, so naturally I had to buy it, even though I hadn’t started reading any of the books yet. So yes, I bought Hedwig at Potters, and now she sits on the windowsill in our room waiting to take messages.

Adorable.

It’s Christmas Eve and it’s raining. Where is all the snow!?

I guess it will be a wet Christmas this year, but we will be all warm and cozy inside!

Time to relax and enjoy all the family and food.

Wishing everyone a very Merry Christmas, from our family to yours!

A couple of months ago I came across an article about my co-worker Lindsay and her fiance talking about their relationship. She told me that the author was looking for couples to interview and asked if I would be interested. I gave her my contact info and a few weeks later I had the pleasure of meeting Adina the author, and Sam the photographer.

We gave them wine and made them pasta and talked and talked and talked. It didn’t feel like an interview, it felt like having a good conversation with friends over food.

We wore our hearts on our sleeve and talked openly about our relationship.

Of course there was too much stuff to include everything, but here is what made the cut.

Love is a Four Letter Word.

I am in no mood to look at houses, which is the weirdest thing ever considering I have the time to look at houses. We have decided to somewhat postpone our search, considering that it is Christmas and our time is better spent with family and friends. As well, there are a total of zero houses on the market worth looking at right now so really we don’t have a lot of options anyways. Whats even weirder is I have no desire to look at any interior design websites or watch any sort of home shows on HGTV. I guess it feel like we are finally settled in my parents house and the thought of doing that all over again is a bit overwhelming. I kind of just want to hibernate for the winter.

I have finished unpacking all of our boxes, I just wish we would have had more space in our storage locker so that the stuff that was in my parents basement could have been moved and stored, leaving space for the stuff we brought it. It is still a bit of a tight squeeze in some place but we can’t really do anything about that. I have, however, taken over the entire spice cabinet with my spices. My Mother doesn’t understand how someone can have that many spices. I don’t understand how someone can not.

I tried to convince my parents to get a real tree this year, you know, since its a special year with us living there and all, but they weren’t into it. Even though I promised to clean up all the needles they still wouldn’t go for it. LAME. I think we are going to set up the tree this weekend and then Chad can stop complaining about how the house is not Christmassy enough.

Work has been insane, for both Chad and I. We have both had to put in our share of overtime which makes it feel like we have no time for anything else.

I have also been stressing out lately about the amount of hair that has been falling out of my head. My pony tail is slowly but surely getting smaller which is the worst feeling in the world. I assumed all my thyroid problems had been solved by now and my hair would return to its original state but I guess that’s not the case. I’ve talked to a few people and done some research online and I think my best bet to solving this problem is to start taking a multi vitamin again. I have an appointment with my Doctor in the new year so I will probably ask him about it then. In the mean time I will try not to stress as the floors get covered in hair.

Tonight we are going to try out yet another new pizza place. This one is probably the most casual of all the ones we’ve been to. I’m excited for our mini date and for Italian pizza.

Oh yea, remember how I was all obsessed with the KitchenAid 13 Cup Food Processor and posted about it 100 times on Facebook. Guess what was delivered to my house Tuesday night?! Oh hell yes. I need to start food processing stuff!!!

Merry Christmas to ME!