So, after 4 years of working at Plum, they finally asked me to be a model. HA!

They asked me to style a Boyfriend jacket my own way. If this isn’t me, I don’t know what is.

It’s funny how no matter what, your personal style always come through. I can’t even tell you how many people saw these pictures and said “OMG that is SO you!” Yes, well, I do dress myself ;)

You can check out the ad here, and if you aren’t totally bored yet, you can also watch this little news clip about the prices of our clothing over the last 20 years.

Stripes, Sneakers, and BF Jackets for life.

You know you are really lazy when you awkwardly sit at your desk for 3 hours because you have to pee really badly, but going down a flight of stairs is just too much effort.

Yes, I am that pathetic today.

I wish I had a bigger desk at work. Thanks to the giant colour printer my desk space is limited. I don’t even use the colour printer. RE: Danielle is complaining.

I’ve created storage  bins out of cardboard boxes. I don’t have any drawers, so all my snacks are kept in a box under my desk. If the mice every come back they are going to have a field day.

I have to keep everything so organized, otherwise my 3 inches of desk space would be taken over by paper work. I’m so obsessed with space that sometimes, when Alicia isn’t looking, I organize her side of the desk to make it feel like there is more space, even though there isn’t, and it’s on her side anyways.

I just wish I had more room to spread out. Why am I always in a situation where I have to live in a cramped space? Is it because I’m so small?

In Italy I had to sit at the very back of the van with a the luggage. At home, my closet is the size of a 2 x 2 foot hole in the wall, and at work my desk space is taken up buy printers and scanners and crap.

It makes me sad. And claustrophobic.

Le sigh.

But its OK. I’m sure I will live.

It is the busiest time of year for me, so you are going to have to excuse my lack of posting.

Spring is close to coming to an end, but seasons never end as nicely as they should. There are always stragglers and styles that scream to be finished and zippers you thought you already ordered. I would love for a season to just END, nice and tidy with no loose ends, but, we all know that will never happen.

We are now starting to organize Fall, which just totally screws up with my head because it is Winter outside, there are Spring clothes in the warehouse to buy, and we are looking at Fall fabrics. So much confusion.

I have taken on the giant responsibility of organizing each season now. Being an Organization Whore, it only made sense that I would eventually take it all over. No one else gets the kind of pleasure out of tabbed binders and colourful style walls like I do. Plus, my organization makes everyone life easier here in the office. Yes, you can pat me on the back too.

Oh yea, next week is Invetory. Ha, I got time to organiz that too…NOT!

Email POs to fabric vendors
Finish ordering trims
Receive the trims that have arrived and allocate them to their corresponding factory
Gather design inspiration for todays Design Meeting
Enter Fabric POs into Visual
Create swatch pages
Measure and swatch new fabric
COSTINGS
Organize cost estimates
Update the Open to Buy
Order new binders
Call back fabric vendors
Issue production

And do all of this all day long while juggling everything else that comes along in a day.

Thank God I love organizing and the start of new seasons.

I need to get my life under control!

Today was not a good day for me.

I was consumed with this overwhelming feeling that I was the only one with this unbelievably large pile of work and stress on my desk. Everyone else in the office has gone on their Christmas Holidays or completed their ‘Christmas rush’ tasks, and here I am, with 20 styles that need their trims ordered and 10 styles waiting to have their final costings done.

My job consists of juggling lots of plates at one time. For the most part I am pretty good and it and enjoy the variety it provides me, but every so often, all the plates become too much and I feel like I’m going to collapse under the weight of it all.

It also doesn’t help when the contractors email you info at the last minute and tell you they need your half of the work done the next day. I’m really sorry, but I don’t just sit here on my butt waiting for you to give me work.

My days are meticulously planned out.

Things keep getting pushed back, and I hate having things pushed back. I just want to finish them and shelve them and not have them carry over each day.

Thus is the life I  guess.

Everything I attempted to finish today was halted by road blocks, which then made it seem like I got nothing done all day. It was so frustrating. Missing button prices, fabric that wasn’t logged in, retails I couldn’t find. Nothing seemed to work out.

While I take pride in the insane amount of stuff I can get done in one day, I think I also need to realize that there are going to be times when I can’t make everyone happy, and I can’t, physically, get it all done in one day. Today was one of those days. Actually, this week is going to be one of those weeks.

I need to order trims. I need to put the contractors on hold.

My brain never stops working.

The closer it gets to Italy time, the more anxiety I feel.

I have been failing miserably in the last little while when it comes to work place anxiety. I can not tell you how many nights I have spent sleepless, mind racing, unable to think about anything else.

There is a lot of stuff I want to get done before I head out for a month. A lot of the stuff I have already finished up, but there are still things that lag behind, that I have not been able to attack quite yet, mostly because I am waiting on other people.

I know I put a lot of pressure on myself because I am always in a state of wanting to please everyone and never wanting to get in trouble. I swear I spend most of my days as a 5 year old kid looking for praise and hiding from punishment. I don’t really know why I’m like that.

I cripple under the fear of getting in trouble, even for the smallest thing.

I know I build things up in my head. I know I over dramatize almost every situation I’m in. I know everything turns out alright in the end, I just need to keep telling myself that.

Claudia warned be that the last month before going away on a big vacation like this is death. The pressure mounts for you to get the most amount of work humanly possible done so that it will be smooth sailing for everyone else in the office. I knew it was coming, and so far, I’ve handled it great. I want to get things done, I want to make it easy for everyone, but there is part of me that feels no matter how much I prepare, there will still be things that come up that I ‘should have done’. It’s hard to explain. I know there are people on my side, but I also know there are people ‘against me’. It’s those people that I am letting get to me.

This trip has been a struggle since the moment I started planning it.

I can’t control everything. I can’t be your security blanket forever.

There is going to be a meeting this week to make sure everything is set in place for when I leave. I am striving to make their minds explode with just how much I have done in preparation. Then, just maybe, everyone will be on my side.